Another thing I am struggling with is TRUST in my higher power. It seems strange that I can trust so many evil things, drinking, gambling, etc...to bring me happiness, but the one thing that truly can take this away from me is my Higher Power.
I laugh at the notion I can do this all by myself. It truly is a feat to be in recovery and take this sickness away. There is not a person who suffers from this disease that will tell you that it will rip your soul out if you let it....truly....
I am grateful for my balance that is coming to my life..
Today I am grateful for:
- My wife and daughter and how much fun we had this weekend.
- My time alone this morning as I worked out to reflect and see changes I need to make.
- Honesty taking over my mind, even when the fucked up thoughts try to creep in.
- Inventory and the process starting for me.