More willing...

In my sobriety I feel my old willfulness come out a lot. In takes so many forms I have a hard time trying to discern what is my old habits, a dry drunk habit or just plain stubborn. My sponsor told me to be more willing, and when asked how to do that, he just said stop controlling things. I am praying so hard to be more willing and able to do things. To let my will go and give it to God. That seems to be the hardest thing for me, getting the old self will out of the way.

Today I am grateful for:
  • The fun weekend planned.
  • Getting to my favorite meetings.
  • Trust coming back from people.
  • Trying to be willing to work hard at everything I do.

1 comment:

  1. Steps 3 and 11 will take you far. It takes practice to drop a life time of habits. Be easy on yourself, too, as alcoholics tend to beat on themselves.