As an alcoholic I feel I am constantly doing half measures. This half way, that half way. Just doing enough to get by...just doing as much as it takes to get the minimum done. I don't believe that is how life should be. It started early with me, as a kid I would always do the same thing. I think it stems from selfish behaviour. The reason I do things half way is that I want to go do something I want. I hope to be able to work on this character defect. I hope to be able to get that piece away from me as I continue to work the program. It will be more and more difficult to be self seeking if I lose myself in the program.
Today I am grateful for:
- Sleeping in my own bed, travelling makes my clock all out of sync.
- Morning Tea again.
- A new doctor that I can get a hold of and maybe get some of my medical problems worked out.
- Progress and not perfection.
- God being there, even when sometimes WE abandon him...