There is a famous football star that has his own line of clothing and on the shirts it says.."I love Me some ME." That was me when I drank. I was the coolest, best looking, funniest, wittiest, and down right awesome person ever, and I made sure to tell you. In sobriety I am learning that I really had no self love at all....I hated myself.
I have heard many times in the rooms, "For someone who thought so little of themselves, I sure thought a lot about myself." That was me to the tee...never was I able to really love myself. The "it" I found that helped me with that was alcohol.
I am learning to love myself and be humble. It is such a long road that I must journey one day at a time.
Today I am grateful for:
- Making plans for our anniversary dinner, and knowing I have the tools to stay sober till then, and have a great time.
- My daughter and her cheery personality in the morning.
- Not obsessing so much on a problem I am having, giving it to God.
- Progress not perfection.