I have found myself this last week in a spin of toxic thoughts. Anything from you will never beat this disease to you will never be a good father, son, husband, friend, (fill in the blank). Today I was watching a minister we watch every Sunday and he spoke of Toxic thoughts. I couldn't believe what I was hearing, because it was exactly what I was thinking all week long. He spoke of physical "cleansing" that is recommended by doctors to get all the toxins out of our body. He then spoke of a mental cleansing. To replace our old thoughts with new ones. He compared this with having a glass full of dirty water, all sorts of sand, and bits of dirt. We don't need to dump the water out, all we have to do is keep pouring clean water into the glass, and eventually the glass will be full of clean fresh water. This is the same with my alcoholism. If I keep pumping good things into my glass, eventually it will be full of clean fresh thoughts, of which I can grow in my recovery and rid myself of this physical and mental obsession.
Today I am Grateful for:
A message today for happiness.
Waking up and not coming too, like I used to on so many Sunday mornings.
The quiet time with my daughter this morning while my wife slept.
A new sponsor who really cares and connects with me.