In life we too often rely on others to "fix" our problems. Our spouses, our therapists, parents, co-workers, etc...How often I have heard "I am going to stay sober for such and such..." or "I go to Church because my parents want me to." Is this really what we want? Do we want what we do on a day to day basis, or do we rely on others for our motivation. The only way one can truly change is to really want it. Not to do it because someone else wants it. Now, if someone came into the program for someone else and stays for themselves, that is beautiful. If someone goes to church for someone else and finds their Higher Power on their own and stays for that, then it is awesome.
Their is a story I heard about a young boy who wanted to earn his allowance. His Mom told him that if he cleaned the windows really good, with no spots, he could have his allowance. He went outside and started to clean the windows, and scrubbed and scrubbed and scrubbed. He stayed out for so long his Mom came out. He said he was sorry but no matter how hard he cleaned, their were still spots on the window. His Mom smiled and told him that the spots were on the inside of the window and he needed to clean inside too.
This is like us, no matter how hard we clean the outside appearance, our inside must be clean to see no spots.
Like the program says...Clean House, Trust God, and Help Others. All will be well....
Today I am grateful for:
- Meeting today.
- Church and the message it brought to be committed to my Higher Power.
- My wife and her patience with our wonderful daughter in these wonderful times of a two year old!!!!
- My commitment to the program and my Higher Power growing everyday.
- Saying Thank You tonight. Thank you I didn't pick up today.