A vision for me, for us all.....

Last night I woke up around 3 am, eyes wide open, nothing to do. I decided to read the last chapter in the Big Book, A Vision for you. I always liked this chapter, it gave me hope, that there really is a way. I found my favorite paragraph so far, something that when I read it this time, it spoke to me about my "new" sobriety.

"Abandon yourself to God as you understand God. Admit your faults to Him and to your fellows. Clear away the wreckage of your past. Give freely of what you find and join us. We shall be with you in the Fellowship of the Spirit, and you will surely meet some of us as you trudge the Road of Happy Destiny.
May God Bless you and keep you until then." Big Book of AA. pg. 164

I like that Road is capitalized. I like that they ask that God keeps me and blesses me, till then, meaning till I, too, trudge the road. God alone can keep me and make me whole. I like that it sums up recovery in one paragraph. Surrender, admit, and give. WOW, it's a whole new program.

Today I am grateful for:

• A peaceful sounding alarm clock that woke me up 10 minutes after I had finally gotten back to sleep.
• My understanding of my disease just a little better today.
• Not worrying about tomorrow, just focusing on today.
• The cool ocean breeze that careens through my house when the windows are open.