Probably NOT!!!

"(b) That probably no human power could have relieved our alcoholism." Pg.60 Alcoholics Anonymous

In the depths of my disease it was easy to stop, or so I thought. I would go a whole week without drinking and be proud of myself. I never lost the obsession or craving. I cannot do that on my own. The power of AA is that a higher power relieves me of my obsession and craving. I am so glad for that, cuz I could NOT do it myself. Nor could my wife, family or friends. I disagree with a word in the passage above. Probably. I know for a fact that I will not stay sober for someone or because of someone. A power above and beyond must help me, must be with me. Acceptance, for me, begins with knowing I cannot stay sober on my own. Only my higher power can help me.

Today I am grateful for:
  • A three day weekend.
  • My meeting this morning and how I am praying it centers me.
  • My tooth healing, and being able to eat normal food.
  • Just living in California, and the lovely marine layer that is over us right now.

1 comment:

  1. We are all broken; without the Lord I can not be fixed. Only He can. I am glad your tooth is better and I still will love you even though you live in CA and I dont.